Sunday, November 22, 2009

Wow

Has it really been that long since I have been able to sit down and write?! I am amazed at how quickly time flies. Just as I was ready to jump into my Mary Kay business, I lost my full time job. I was unemployed for part of the summer and into the fall. It was a long and difficult time for me. I was wondering when it was going to end. It was a daily struggle. I do not know know where I would have been without the love and support of my family and friends through this time.

I am saddened by the fact that I haven't written about most of this experience. In my trials, I ended up retreating into myself and really reflecting on my life. It would have been more therapeutic for me to write more, but I just didn't. Sitting here writing now is such a relief and joy. I write this mainly for me, but if I can help just one person realize there is silver lining somewhere for them as well, then it would be the best scenario possible. It would make all my times of struggle worth it.

Well, the hands of fate had finally turned in my direction. A job that had come my way last year around Christmas (and had turned down) became available again this October. I think that things happen in your life, things you go through, a divorce, a bad relationship, or losing a job, to help you understand how strong of a person you are. That is not to say I didn't struggle, or wonder why me, I had my days. I have, however, been able to look back on this whole ordeal and realize how much experiences in life shape you and help you grow as a person. I am a better and stronger person because of the things life has handed me. I can't say I am grateful for them when I am gong through them, but after getting through them, I realize how much of an experience it was.

I have been very busy with my new job and trying to get myself back on my feet. I love the everyday challenges of my job and feeling such a sense of accomplishment. I am now able to start focusing on my Mary Kay business again, and enjoying all that it has to offer. I am also able to be the mom I want to be, providing for my kids. I am a very lucky girl.